i'm now on tumblr and never use this damn livejournal, except for posting on ONTD.
i'm single. for the first time in 2.5 years. that's odd.
i'm going to INDIA in 2 weeks. I can't wait.
i'm currently in the middle of finals and will post more once i have a break
I have been neglecting my LJ for so long.
I feel like all I say on this thing is that I will write more, but I never do.
I guess its because tumblr is easier to manage. I wish there was a way to link the two so if I updates my tumblr, my livejournal will update as well.
This winter I will be starting a new chapter in my life. I will hopefully be starting at a new school, one where I will actually enjoy being at.
I guess time will tell!
I am almost done with freshman year.
I feel so cut off from everyone. I don't watch tv. I don't listen to the radio. I get tid bits from CNN when I go to get my bagel and coffee in the morning. It is such a weird feeling.
I need to feel the normalcy of normal life again.
I miss it.
Man, things have changed a lot.
I just spent the past few minutes reading over old entries. I had to make many of them private because of who they were talking about. We're ok now. However our relationship will never be the same.
That is life I guess.
I miss posting in this thing.
I have a tumblr and a blogger.
this just feels like home haha
i should of known better than to trust you.
never ever give your heart away to someone. all they are going to do is smash it to pieces.
i have learned my lesson.
I am an asshole. I am a bitch. I'm a tease. I'm a horrible person.
I lead a guy on, but I haven't stopped flirting. He kissed me last night. The whole time I was thinking of someone else. I don't know what I am going to do. I really don't. He is a good friend, I don't want to hurt him.
I am such a guy. I don't believe in relationships. Maybe thats because I was raised to think that way. I was raised to believe that you don't need anyone else but yourself. I am too independent to give in now. I have so much I want to do. I don't want to have to worry about another person.
I need to get out. I need to start over. I don't what I am doing anymore. I have changed everyday that I have been home. I miss Chicago, but I am itching for a new place.
I should just pack up and leave.
I really need to update this thing. For a long time this is where I vented and wrote everything. Now I barely use it. Maybe because there are a quite a few entries about an ex-love of my life. I don't know.
I live in Chicago now, well Lincoln Park if you want to get specific. I love it. I have always loved the city. However, I am on break now until January 3rd. It is so nice to be home, expect for the fact that I go stuck on the stupid ice. Sometimes I hate snow.
I want to move somewhere new. I know, I just said how much I love Chicago, but I get bored easily. I need something new and fresh. I knew I wouldn't be able to stay in one place for too long. I guess that is just typical Megan. I can never make up my mind.
I need sleep. I am home alone all weekend. My family went to New York. I stayed behind to watch the babies, aka the pets. We got a new kitten this week. She has no name as of yet. I am sure we will figure it out.
I pinkie promise, even though I doubt anyone reads this dang thing, that I will update more.
I have been neglecting this blog for too long. I remember when I used to update at least once a day. This blog was my outlet. I have entries going back to some of my roughest times. I read them and look at how much I have grown as a person. Now, that I am in college I need to grow even more. I need to grow and become the adult I know I can be. I have so much to say right now, but I am in class and cannot.
I need to update this.
I want to updat this.
I know that no one reads it, but that doesn't matter. This is for me.
I have not updated in so long. I need to get my butt in gear.
I am finally out of Crystal Lake. I am living in Lincoln Park in Chicago. I love it. I have been here almost a week and it already seems like home.
I live in an Andy Warhol hell. My wall is covering with his quotes. I know it is cliche to love him, but I do. He fascinates me.
I want to have my life be filled with as many colors and characters as possible. I want to change everyday. I want to surrond myself with people who challenge me. I need to become more creative. I want to live my life un-afraid of every corner and obstacle.
I am ready.