well this has been a while

i'm now on tumblr and never use this damn livejournal, except for posting on ONTD.

i'm single. for the first time in 2.5 years. that's odd.

i'm going to INDIA in 2 weeks. I can't wait.

i'm currently in the middle of finals and will post more once i have a break

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I have been neglecting my LJ for so long.

I feel like all I say on this thing is that I will write more, but I never do.

I guess its because tumblr is easier to manage. I wish there was a way to link the two so if I updates my tumblr, my livejournal will update as well.

This winter I will be starting a new chapter in my life. I will hopefully be starting at a new school, one where I will actually enjoy being at.

I guess time will tell!

College

I am almost done with freshman year.

I feel so cut off from everyone. I don't watch tv. I don't listen to the radio. I get tid bits from CNN when I go to get my bagel and coffee in the morning. It is such a weird feeling.

I need to feel the normalcy of normal life again.

I miss it.

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Man, things have changed a lot.

I just spent the past few minutes reading over old entries. I had to make many of them private because of who they were talking about. We're ok now. However our relationship will never be the same.

That is life I guess.

never trust a hoe

i should of known better than to trust you.

never ever give your heart away to someone. all they are going to do is smash it to pieces.

i have learned my lesson.

never again.

asshole.

I am an asshole. I am a bitch. I'm a tease. I'm a horrible person.

I lead a guy on, but I haven't stopped flirting. He kissed me last night. The whole time I was thinking of someone else. I don't know what I am going to do. I really don't. He is a good friend, I don't want to hurt him.

I am such a guy. I don't believe in relationships. Maybe thats because I was raised to think that way. I was raised to believe that you don't need anyone else but yourself. I am too independent to give in now. I have so much I want to do. I don't want to have to worry about another person.

I need to get out. I need to start over. I don't what I am doing anymore. I have changed everyday that I have been home. I miss Chicago, but I am itching for a new place.

I should just pack up and leave.

Hello Old Friend

I really need to update this thing. For a long time this is where I vented and wrote everything. Now I barely use it. Maybe because there are a quite a few entries about an ex-love of my life. I don't know.

I live in Chicago now, well Lincoln Park if you want to get specific. I love it. I have always loved the city. However, I am on break now until January 3rd. It is so nice to be home, expect for the fact that I go stuck on the stupid ice. Sometimes I hate snow.

I want to move somewhere new. I know, I just said how much I love Chicago, but I get bored easily. I need something new and fresh. I knew I wouldn't be able to stay in one place for too long. I guess that is just typical Megan. I can never make up my mind.

I need sleep. I am home alone all weekend. My family went to New York. I stayed behind to watch the babies, aka the pets. We got a new kitten this week. She has no name as of yet. I am sure we will figure it out.

I pinkie promise, even though I doubt anyone reads this dang thing, that I will update more.

Week 2

I have been neglecting this blog for too long. I remember when I used to update at least once a day. This blog was my outlet. I have entries going back to some of my roughest times. I read them and look at how much I have grown as a person. Now, that I am in college I need to grow even more. I need to grow and become the adult I know I can be. I have so much to say right now, but I am in class and cannot.

I need to update this.

I want to updat this.

I know that no one reads it, but that doesn't matter. This is for me.

Oh my gosh

I have not updated in so long. I need to get my butt in gear.

I am finally out of Crystal Lake. I am living in Lincoln Park in Chicago. I love it. I have been here almost a week and it already seems like home.

I live in an Andy Warhol hell. My wall is covering with his quotes. I know it is cliche to love him, but I do. He fascinates me.

I want to have my life be filled with as many colors and characters as possible. I want to change everyday. I want to surrond myself with people who challenge me. I need to become more creative. I want to live my life un-afraid of every corner and obstacle.

I am ready.

Get Set.

Go.